God sees in me a man who definitely has struggles with the old nature invading the new nature, and sees my regular righteous indignation, distractions, weaknesses, and lethargy in witnessing as things that work against growth and obedience to tell others about the Lord Jesus Christ.
As scripture tells us, we need to die to self daily. And it is indeed a daily process. Sometimes it feels like we're going backwards, I know; but God is making sure we move forward...slowly but surely. All we need to do is to keep our eyes on Jesus and seek Him every day, getting to know Him better and better. We can count on Him to produce His nature in us, that fruit of the Spirit that we long the bear.
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