This is very good. And a subject close to my heart. I think that someone can have a relatively trouble-free life and still be very close to God. I have noticed, however, that many of the things I have read about Christians who have made tremendous impacts for the Kingdom, suffered greatly in early life, or throughout their lives, or experienced a monumental trial.
I have had a few serious trials since becoming a Christian. One was a monumental trial that I don’t even know if I can ever speak about here, or even to my brethren at church. It was a very, very difficult, unspeakably painful span of years and it was my spiritual “Waterloo” so to speak. I ended up having to whittle down everything I ever believed about being a Christian, all the way down to the Cross. At times, I felt as if I was in a stormy sea of suffering, pain and sorrow, as I clung to the cross on a tiny buoy. I then started over and dug into the Word with no preconceived expectations. I grew exponentially through the trial but it will always be a painful aspect of my life…a “why?” until I meet Him face to face, and then I will no longer care. Thank God!
I also have several ridiculous chronic health issues with no answers, no cures, no treatments. The symptoms are unseen and not serious, yet just enough to meddle with my life. I suffer with fatigue from one of them, that can be debilitating if I over-extend myself. My husband is a migraine sufferer. The health issues are frustrating and very discouraging at times, because my husband and I both desperately long to serve God and make our lives count for Him. Yet, have spent so many days with either or both of us just wiped out. Times like this I hold on to the bottom line, and that is that I am IN Christ. And so even if all I can do is abide, that is everything to Him.
Things like this are where the rubber really meets the road of our faith. Things where life not only doesn’t go according to how we want, but also according to what we thought HE wants. It’s hard. And yet, there are times when we can almost sense within ourselves, that solid rock under our souls. That clinging to Him. That prostrate position before His throne. And we just know that this is where we are supposed to be. Even though our minds just don’t understand.
I really feel that so much of me just had to die, and still needs to, daily.
Why others seem to have an easy life is beyond me. I guess God’s answer to me is the same answer that Jesus gave Peter, when he asked about John…”And what about this guy?”
It has been a ministry to me to even write this.
I am Yours, my God.